Day 1 - Your favourite song

I actually have a few - and all of them relate to something and spark a memory. So in fact, I'm going to do my top 5...

5. Queen - Don't Stop me Now.
I dare you to get the whole way through the song without nodding your head, tapping your foot, or having a good ol' boogy!

4. Suzi Quattro - Devil Gate Drive.
This song reminds me of my dad. We danced a little bit like loonatics to this at my wedding, and it still makes me smile thinking about it now.

3. Joan Jett - I Love Rock and Roll.
Don't ask me why - I just love it.

2. Nickelback - Rockstar
Originally, I didn't really like this track, but then it became significant for
a lot of different reasons. For a while, it was a song I couldn't listen
to and made me cry.

1. Bon Jovi - You Had me From Hello.
Not one of their better known ones, but the words are so lovely, and it was the first dance when Imarried Mr B.

If you asked me again tomorrow, though, it'd probably be a completely different list!

Shameless Theft!

I recently discovered Michelle's blog - No I'm not pregnant, just fat and I'm loving her 30 posts in 30 days challenge. (Is it weird that this is the first one I've seen?!).

Anyway, I've decided to a) shamelessly steal it and b) hope Michelle doesn't mind...

So, here's what you can look forward to...

Day 1 - Your Favourite Song

Day 2 - Your favourite movie

Day 3 - Your favourite television program

Day 4 - Your favourite book

Day 5 - Your favourite quote

Day 6 - 20 of your favourite things

Day 7 - A photo that makes you happy

Day 8 - a photo that makes you angry / sad

Day 9 - a photos you took

Day 10 - a photo taken over 10 years ago of you

Day 11 - A photo of you recently

Day 12 - Something you are OCD about

Day 13 - a fictional book

Day 14 - a non fictional book

Day 15 - Your dream house

Day 16 - A song that makes you cry (or nearly)

Day 17 - An art piece (drawing, sculpture, painting etc)

Day 18 - Your wedding - past, present or future!

Day 19 - a talent of yours

Day 20 - a hobby of yours

Day 21 - a recipe

Day 22 - a website

Day 23 - a youtube video

Day 24 - where you live

Day 25 - your day, in great detail

Day 26 - your week, in great detail.

Day 27 - your worst habbit

Day 28 - What's in your handbag / purse

Day 29 - hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365

Day 30 - a dream for the future.

I'm looking forward to the next 30 days!!

Monday, Monday!

I love bank holidays. Not only does it feel like I've been off work ages, I only have a 4 day week this week too.

PLUS! Mr B and I are off all of next week, so that makes it...

AWESOME!

I was at home home this weekend (aka my mum's house!). It's the first time I've stayed there since Christmas, and the longest I've been away from Mr B since we've been married. I loved it!! haha!

Obviously I missed him, but I think it's fair to say we've both had a good weekend.

I caught up with some friends that I haven't seen in a while (in fact, the four of us haven't been in the same room for nearly 9 years, although we've all seen each other since. Just not all together. Crazy, huh?!)

I also went to the World Hovercraft Championships on Sunday, where one of my colleagues came second... He's the second fastest hovercrafter in the world - how mental is that!?

Not quite sure what's going on with le cycle this month. Think I'm on about CD30, with no sign of OV (still). Had a really nice chat with my mum about everything, though, and she's assured me that when it happens, I will be a fab mummy.

It's nice when your mum has faith in you, huh?

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First one done!

I've written my first official blog posts for my old boss.

His company One Step Further is a life coaching and NLP training company, so everythings based around that.

Check it out if you've got a mo, and pass along to anyone else you think might like it!

blog.onestep-further.com

I really AM sorry...

This is totally how I feel this week. Well, at the moment in general, really. Time seems to be slipping by, while I achieve very little!

Mr B and I have a week of soon, though, and other than a couple of nights away, we'll be at home doing lots of homey things (cleaning, decorating and ebaying, mainly!).

Maybe I'll get to enjoy a clean house then?

Thoughtful Thursday

Live your life without regret

Don't be someone who they forget

That's a Mel C one. I ashamed to admit that. It's mental what you hear on your iPod shuffle

Update

The chat with my old boss was brilliant! We were talking for almost two hours, and we've got lots of plans and ideas. We just need to make them happen, now....! Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, Blogs, Press Releases... I've got it all to do!
We both said we're really excited to be working together again though, which is nice.

I also told him about how things are going down here at the moment, too. We've agreed that he'll take me on as an employee as soon as he's making money! Haha!

In other news...

It's weigh in tonight. Bit nervous, especially after the liquid diet I had over the weekend. Having said that, my trousers today feel a bit looser, so only the scales will tell, I spose!

CD24. Not sure what's going on with that. Nothing to suggest that I've ovulated, though. Mr B and I are doing the deed all the time, though, so finger's crossed we catch.

Work's still rubbish, but it look's like I might have an interview lined up for the next week or so. Super excited about that!

Anyway, nearly home time! Keep your finger's crossed for me for tonight!!
xx

Waiting...

I'm waiting to chat with my old boss via Skype to see how I can help him with his new company's social media and marketing plans.

Weirdly, I'm quite nervous...

What if I'm about to suggest things that I can't deliver on?

What if he doesn't like what I suggest?

What if I promise commit time that I end up struggling to accomplish?

What if, despite what I think, I'm actually not very good at it?

So many what ifs!?!!

I actually feel a bit nervous, and I don't really understand why....

There's some excitement thrown in there too, though - this could be an awesome new adventure that I'm about to start...!!

A whole new level of wrong...

I went to the Rewind festival yesterday and it was AWESOME!!

My friend and I drank FAR too much (great start to my diet, eh!!) but we had a fab time!

But, there were a few things about the day that were just wrong...

• Portaloos.
  When we were on safari, I peed in some pretty bizarre places, but I'm sure that none of them were as bad as the portaloos yesterday.
• Other people's habits.
  Now, this links back to the portaloos, but who in their right mind thinks it's acceptable to leave a used sanitary towel open and on the floor of a toilet that about a million other people are going to use?!
• Fancy dress.
  Some of the costumes were awesome - in fact one of the guys we were with was dressed a a Rubiks cube - but some of them were pretty weird. Including the dude with purple glitter, purple nipple tassles and purple fairy wings on.... Traumatised for life.

All in all, it was a wicked day, although today's hangover's not quite too awesome...!!!

My week. It's been great. Not.

I was working at the weekend, and then sick Monday Tuesday (I think more exhaustion, than actual illness, TBH - I slept for almost 24 hours. Mental).

While I was off on Monday my MD called me with some news that he "wanted me to hear from him". That's never a good sign, is it!?

Anyway, it turns out that our offices are moving in December. But we're not going to know where they're going until November. Great.

Our offices are currently about half an hour from home (I don't drive, and Mr b drops me off on his way to work every day). I live the furthest north, and most other people live south London way. That suggests to me that the new office is going to be in that sort of direction, which, in turn, means I won't be moving with them.

Not necessarily a bad thing, because I'm unhappy here anyway, but I wanted to leave on my own terms, and preferably with something else to go to. So, I had a bit of a melt down on Monday / Tuesday, and was unsure whether we should continue TTC.
Mr B, bless him, wasn't sure what the answer was, so told me to ring my mum. She told me to stop being so bloody stupid, take some follic acid and get to bed. "For bonking, naomi, because you won't get pregnant just looking at him". Err...thanks mum!

She has quite rightly pointed out to me that if I get pregnant, there will be a way around the work situation. And I need to stop panicing. So, as I'm not one to disobey my mum, that's exactly what we've been up to for the past few days!!!

I also re-joined Slimming World on Wednesday. My weight is pretty much where it was when I first started my dieting back in January 2006, which obviously isn't great. I'm hoping that the group support will help me to finally shift some of the timber!

Tomorrow's going to be my first challenge, though - I'm off to REWIND. There's bound to be food and booze that I'm not supposed to have, but as long as it's just one day, I should be ok!

Laters Taters!

Crazy Week!

This past week I've been:

Busy
Ill
Annoyed
Happy
Disappointed
Tired
Upset


It's been crazy.

I'll fill you in later!
x

I'm with Stupid.

Seems I'm full of stupidness today...

This morning I told my male colleague that I couldn't help him with his ball ache.

I later told him that I wouldn't like to eat him.

Thoughtful Thursday

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter.

Courtesy of Daughtry!

When the crowd say Bo, Selecta...

I'm going to the 80s rewind festival next weekend!!

My friend managed to get tickets and told me last night.

Rick Astley, T'Pau, The Weather Girls, Boy George... they're all gonna be there.

Can't wait.

Just need to find some 80s fancy dress now... any ideas!?

It hurts a bit...

My cousin got engaged recently. It was her party on Friday.

I've just seen some photos on Facebook, and ALL my family were there -my aunties, my grandparents, all of 'em (except my mum).

I got married in November. Not a single one of them made the effort to come to our wedding reception. Two of my aunties didn't even bother to RSVP.

I get that it was a little bit further away, but it wasn't the ends of the earth - just over an hour's drive.

I get that none of their children were invited, but it was my wedding, and I didn't want them there - I don't remember the last time I saw most of them.

And I get that it would've required some effort, but it was my wedding reception.

So, yeah, it hurts a little that they all made the effort for the engagement party. But fuck 'em. I've just crossed a whole load of people off my Christmas card list (and left a bitchy comment on Facebook!)

Pictures

After my trip down memory lane, I thought I'd share some pictures from back in the day!

This guy was my best friend at college. We were like two peas in a pod, and spent all our time together. His parents moved back to Tobago as we started college, and my mum sort of took him under her wing. I will admit that I fancied him a bit, but never acted on it. At the end of college, he moved back to Tobago, and on his last day, I told him that I fancied him. When he asked me why I'd never told him before I said "because my arse is too big, my boobs are too small, my hair's not long or blonde enough, and my face is all wrong, so what was the point!?". He looked at me and said "yeah, you're right!!"
These pictures are May / June 2002.

March 2001 - my 17th Birthday. I was forever changing my hair colour. I was pink, green, blue, purple, orange and pillar box red. I went super short, too - clippered all over. I had no fear!! But then I got a "real" job, and had to have sensible hair. Boo!!

So, there's a few pictures from way back when.

Memory Lane...

Now there's a scary place to go!!

I had a trip there last night, and really wish I hadn't!

Mr B and I are giving the house a good ol' clear out. We're being optimistic, and doing it "ready for when a baby comes". Never mind that there's no sign of me being anything like pregnant atm!!

Anyway! Under our bed we have a whole load of boxes full of stuff, which is mainly mine! One of the boxes (and my personal favourite, I have to say!) is photos and "memory box" stuff. Now photos, I can cope with. I can appreciate that I've aged, and got older, and I'm never going to be that fresh-faced young thing again (to be honest, I'm not sure I'd want to be, either!). But I also found some clothes.

The first concert I ever went to was Bon Jovi in 2000. I went with two of my friends. We were 16 and thought we were pretty cool. We all wore matching t-shirts that we'd customised, and jeans. I spent DAYS customising the jeans, too - I bleached them, and I sewed them. Hearts, flowers, song lyrics, you name it - it was stitched in to those jeans. We looked HOT ridiculous!!

Anyway, I found the outfit that I wore to that concert. Man I was skinny 10 years ago! The worst part about it, though, was that I thought I was fat. I was a size 16 which, if we're all honest, is no-where near what most people would deem "skinny", but to my size 24 ass, that seems tiny now. What upsets me most is that I didn't realise at the time how bloody lucky I was to have a bum so tiny! I couldn't believe it when I held up those jeans last night and saw how narrow they were!!

I can actually chronicle my weight gain through the pictures that I have from that time. I was diagnosed with PCOS at 16/17, which I know is pretty lucky, as a lot of people are a lot older when they're finally diagnosed. I had been on the pill because of heavy periods from when I was 12, and it was only when I came off the pill, due to migraines, at 16 that the doctors actually started paying attention to the problems I had. Within 18 months, I'd heffed on nearly 2 stone.

I went from being a relatively attractive size 16 at the beginning of college to a considerably overweight and unfit size 20 when I left. But, I was having a blast, making some great friends, and living the good life, so what did it matter? I had plenty of time to worry about my weight / fertility / PCOS / everything else. I was busy having fun for now!!

Shame it didn't quite work out like that, though...!!

This is why I'm not in sales...

ME: I've just told them they don't need three.
COLLEAGUE: I know they don't need three, but they should have three cos it's more money for us.

It makes my blood boil that people actually think like that!

I went and registered with a recruitment agency yesterday. It went really well, and I came away from it feeling really positive.

I felt less positive, however, about the AWFUL hair cut I had done just after. Two and a half hours, sat in the most uncomfortable chair I've ever sat in, and the hair cut was awful. So bad, in fact, that when I got home I hacked a whole load off with a pair of nail scissors!! I'm lucky cos my hair's short, and I've had quite a few positive comments about it today, so I must've done ok!!

AF's still here, but I think she's on her way out... PHEW!

Thoughtful Thursday

Everyone and everything

exists to your advantage.

Another Month Begins...

I can't believe that August is already here! It's crazy!

With it came AF! It means that, weirdly, I've only had a 10 day LP this month, which is odd. BUT it is exactly EIGHT WEEKS since my last one... So I don't know what happened in between.

I worked on Saturday, and had a really good time. We had some photos taken (me and two of my colleagues - the Dream Team!!) and it's my goal to look NOTHING like that picture 12 months from now!

Unfortunately, that's something that I say every time I do one of these events and have one of those photos taken, but this time I really mean it!

I'm off to the gym tonight and Slimming on Wednesday.

I'm on a mission, and August marks the start of it!!

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