Let the job search commence!

Just a really quick one as I'm supposed to be updating my CV.

After getting a bit of advice from a friend, I've decided to give my CV a complete revamp.

Turns out that's much easier said than done.

Having been in my current job for just over 2 years, I've realised that it's completely sapped all confidence I had in myself as an employee.

Although I wasn't happy in my previous job, when I left there I was pretty secure in my knowledge of what I could do and what I was capable of. It's been a long time since I've known what that was, though.

I realised pretty soon after starting my current job that
a) It was a big step back and
b) It wasn't what I thought it was when I was interviewed and offered the job.

But, I stuck with it because it was sort of what I needed at the time, the money was good and, at the end of the day, it was a job and all I was hearing about was the doom and gloom that was the job market at the time.

Two years later, though, and I feel like my brain is mush, I still HATE the job and know I can do MUCH better, but putting it on paper is proving to be the end of me. I've been sat for 20 minutes trying to put down my Key Skills. I've not got far...

The weekend starts here!

Well, today has flown by. Not that I'm complaining!

In an hour's time, I'll be on my way home from work, ready for the weekend to start. I might even have a cheeky glass of vino.

I went out last night with S and H and we had a really nice time. We just went for dinner, but had a good giggle and catch up. We haven't all been together since my wedding in November, which doesn't really count because they weren't quite my priority. So, in fact, it was March of last year that we had a good catch up. And, a lot has changed in that time!

S used to be our boss, and he spent a lot of time with me about 2 years ago helping me with my confidence / self belief. I hadn't told him about my depression (I think I was a bit embarrassed) but we chatted about it last night, and he's given me some things to think about to help me keep on track with that. We also chatted about the positive thinking and mind sets when it comes to driving lessons, too, and I'm definitely going to use that - if I think I can drive, and can pass my test, I will.

It all sounds totally airy fairy, and there was a time when I would've rolled my eyes if someone else was telling me this, but because I trust him, and he's helped me before, I suppose I think that anything's worth a try!

Anyway, it was good to catch up with them both.

I've got another manic weekend this weekend - I've taken the be-more-social goal to extremes, I think, and not really given myself / us any time to chill out... Never mind though, it will be nice to see people.

I must get to the gym tomorrow and Sunday, though - it's been to long, and this weight isn't going to lose itself....

Till Sunday!
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