Happy New Year!
May 2011 bring you all you hope and dream for.
31/12/2010
30/12/2010
It's oh so quiet...
The decorations are down, Mr B is ill, and my mum and brother are safely back home.
And the house seems incredibly quiet. I'm really missing having them here. I feel really really homesick.
Although, homesick isn't the right word. Brother and mum sick, is probably a better way to describe it.
It's horrible.
I miss them.
And the house seems incredibly quiet. I'm really missing having them here. I feel really really homesick.
Although, homesick isn't the right word. Brother and mum sick, is probably a better way to describe it.
It's horrible.
I miss them.
21/12/2010
Last Day
Today's my last day at my current job.
I'm a mixed bag of feelings, really.
I'm very excited about what's around the corner. It's a total blind corner, which makes it all the more exciting, I reckon!
I'm nervous, too. What if the corner's not really a corner, and it's more of a long bend and I don't find work for a long time!?
I'm terribly sad to be leaving all of the friends I've made here. Every time I've had to say goodbye to another one of them, and new wave of sadness, tears, and memories overtakes me.
But mostly, I'm relieved. I've done what I need to do to make me feel better, and now I can get on with the rest of forever.
I'm a mixed bag of feelings, really.
I'm very excited about what's around the corner. It's a total blind corner, which makes it all the more exciting, I reckon!
I'm nervous, too. What if the corner's not really a corner, and it's more of a long bend and I don't find work for a long time!?
I'm terribly sad to be leaving all of the friends I've made here. Every time I've had to say goodbye to another one of them, and new wave of sadness, tears, and memories overtakes me.
But mostly, I'm relieved. I've done what I need to do to make me feel better, and now I can get on with the rest of forever.
19/12/2010
Dear Santa...
I'm not a greedy person. There aren't many things that I'd like for Christmas. And they're not big things either - I'm not asking for World Peace or anything, the stuff I'm after is much closer to home.
Just two things would make me happy this Christmas:
1. To have our family with us - so if you can get the snow to go, that would be great.
2. To have something to look forward to in the New Year, work wise.
Merry Christmas!
Just two things would make me happy this Christmas:
1. To have our family with us - so if you can get the snow to go, that would be great.
2. To have something to look forward to in the New Year, work wise.
Merry Christmas!
13/12/2010
A taste of things to come...
Mr B and I had today off work.
I woke up late while he went to get his hair cut, and then the two of us went and wandered around town.
We were home and on the sofa by 3.10. By 3.30 I was bored out of my tiny mind...
I guess it's just a taste of things to come in the new year. Only I won't have Mr B to keep me company then.
I've decided that I'll probably turn myself into a "WAG". What I mean by that is I'll just go to the gym all day every day, and by the end of January I'll be super slim and looking AWESOME!!!
On top of that, I will, obviously, get a job...
Hopefully...
Finger's crossed for me, please?!
I woke up late while he went to get his hair cut, and then the two of us went and wandered around town.
We were home and on the sofa by 3.10. By 3.30 I was bored out of my tiny mind...
I guess it's just a taste of things to come in the new year. Only I won't have Mr B to keep me company then.
I've decided that I'll probably turn myself into a "WAG". What I mean by that is I'll just go to the gym all day every day, and by the end of January I'll be super slim and looking AWESOME!!!
On top of that, I will, obviously, get a job...
Hopefully...
Finger's crossed for me, please?!
11/12/2010
Bah Humbug
I'm really excited about Christmas, really I am.
My mum and brother are coming to spend it with Mr B and I and I can't wait.
Christmas is all about family for me. Seeing my folks and Mr B's folks, grandparents, the lot, without the distraction of work, house work and all the other boring stuff that's going on every other day.
Christmas day is all about chilling out, playing some games, eating foods, and getting some drink in me!
I love giving presents too - I'm definitely a giver more than a receiver when it comes to gifting.
I couldn't care less when the tree goes up and I don't want to listen to Christmas music all day everyday in the office from the 1st December.
That, apparently, makes me a miserable Scrooge.
I don't gettit, just because that's not what makes Christmas Christmas for me, I'm the one that's in the wrong.
Surely I'm not the only one that finds the commercial build up to this one day of the year totally unnecessary.
Or am I??
My mum and brother are coming to spend it with Mr B and I and I can't wait.
Christmas is all about family for me. Seeing my folks and Mr B's folks, grandparents, the lot, without the distraction of work, house work and all the other boring stuff that's going on every other day.
Christmas day is all about chilling out, playing some games, eating foods, and getting some drink in me!
I love giving presents too - I'm definitely a giver more than a receiver when it comes to gifting.
I couldn't care less when the tree goes up and I don't want to listen to Christmas music all day everyday in the office from the 1st December.
That, apparently, makes me a miserable Scrooge.
I don't gettit, just because that's not what makes Christmas Christmas for me, I'm the one that's in the wrong.
Surely I'm not the only one that finds the commercial build up to this one day of the year totally unnecessary.
Or am I??
10/12/2010
I didn't get it...
I didn't get the job.
I'm pretty gutted, and a little bit panicked to be honest.
I've realised, since finding out that I haven't got it, that I had pinned all of my hopes on that job and that I'm totally deflated about it now that it's not happening.
Boo for me.
09/12/2010
Thoughtful Thursday
Inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake.
Author Unknown
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Four Pounds
I've gained 4 pounds in the last 2 weeks.
Which means that I'm now only 4 pounds away from the heaviest weight I ever hit, 5 years ago. I'm sure you can imagine just how great that makes me feel.
It also means that, since I joined the class, I've GAINED half a stone. Somehow, I don't think that's the point of a slimming group.
I don't know what to do - it's obviously not working for me, and I'm spending £5 a week to be told what I already know. I know it's all down to me - if I ate anywhere near the plan, I'd lose the weight, but I just can't seem to stay on track at the moment.
Which means that I'm now only 4 pounds away from the heaviest weight I ever hit, 5 years ago. I'm sure you can imagine just how great that makes me feel.
It also means that, since I joined the class, I've GAINED half a stone. Somehow, I don't think that's the point of a slimming group.
I don't know what to do - it's obviously not working for me, and I'm spending £5 a week to be told what I already know. I know it's all down to me - if I ate anywhere near the plan, I'd lose the weight, but I just can't seem to stay on track at the moment.
08/12/2010
Haha!
After struggling all day to think of a decent post, I did a shit one.
And then I found this.
Not only is it funny - it's TOTALLY true.
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And then I found this.
Not only is it funny - it's TOTALLY true.
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What to say!?
I must've come to post something about 10 times today, and nothing.
I know there must be updates that I can give, but I don't find them interesting, so why should you!?
Work's... ok. I sent an honest and frank email to the MD on Friday and had a good chat with him on Monday. I'm still incredibly excited about it all.
I haven't heard anything about the interview that I went for last week. I'm hoping that no news is good news.
I still haven't had a period. I'm CD60. Last cycle was a 69-er (wahey!) though, so there's still time yet.
I don't remember the last time I spent a whole day following my diet, and I'm really struggling to find any motivation at the moment....
Like I said, nothing exciting going on, really...!
I know there must be updates that I can give, but I don't find them interesting, so why should you!?
Work's... ok. I sent an honest and frank email to the MD on Friday and had a good chat with him on Monday. I'm still incredibly excited about it all.
I haven't heard anything about the interview that I went for last week. I'm hoping that no news is good news.
I still haven't had a period. I'm CD60. Last cycle was a 69-er (wahey!) though, so there's still time yet.
I don't remember the last time I spent a whole day following my diet, and I'm really struggling to find any motivation at the moment....
Like I said, nothing exciting going on, really...!
05/12/2010
Are you REALLY that arrogant?!
Although I handed in my notice on Monday, I didn't actually give my boss any real reasons. We were supposed to then catch up on Thursday and talk it through, but I got snowed in, so that didn't happen.
I ended up in the office on Friday morning with one of my directors. Until Friday, he hadn't actually acknowledged my resignation, but on Friday morning he decided he wanted to talk about it and try and understand my reasons.
It didn't quite work out like that, though - turns out he can't get his head round the fact that I'm prepared to leave a job without a new one to go to. He assumed that something must've happened in my personal life for me to make the decision (the only thing that's happened is that I decided I didn't want to be unhappy any more). Next he asked me if Mr B had had a big pay rise that meant I could afford not to work (he hasn't, and I can't).
When I'd finished telling him all the reasons I'd decided to leave, he told me that they all sounded like personal reasons, and that they weren't really anything to do with the company, so there's nothing that they can do as a company to make changes for other people.
Turns out, he didn't listen to the bit where I told him that I didn't think there was any progression for me there. Or the bit when I told him I was frustrated with the way they dangle carrots all the time and constantly makes the stick longer. Or the bit where I said they're all about the talk, and less about the action, which is really annoying.
My boss has also said that he had no idea that I was so unhappy. Turns out he didn't take me seriously at all when I told him, only 6 weeks ago, that I was ready to walk out because I was so incredibly unhappy. I'm sure that's probably my fault, too, but we'll see what happens after my conversation with him tomorrow.
I ended up in the office on Friday morning with one of my directors. Until Friday, he hadn't actually acknowledged my resignation, but on Friday morning he decided he wanted to talk about it and try and understand my reasons.
It didn't quite work out like that, though - turns out he can't get his head round the fact that I'm prepared to leave a job without a new one to go to. He assumed that something must've happened in my personal life for me to make the decision (the only thing that's happened is that I decided I didn't want to be unhappy any more). Next he asked me if Mr B had had a big pay rise that meant I could afford not to work (he hasn't, and I can't).
When I'd finished telling him all the reasons I'd decided to leave, he told me that they all sounded like personal reasons, and that they weren't really anything to do with the company, so there's nothing that they can do as a company to make changes for other people.
Turns out, he didn't listen to the bit where I told him that I didn't think there was any progression for me there. Or the bit when I told him I was frustrated with the way they dangle carrots all the time and constantly makes the stick longer. Or the bit where I said they're all about the talk, and less about the action, which is really annoying.
My boss has also said that he had no idea that I was so unhappy. Turns out he didn't take me seriously at all when I told him, only 6 weeks ago, that I was ready to walk out because I was so incredibly unhappy. I'm sure that's probably my fault, too, but we'll see what happens after my conversation with him tomorrow.
02/12/2010
The week that was!
It's been a pretty crazy week in the life of Mrs B!
On Monday, I handed in my notice at the job I've been in for more than five years, without a new one to go to. It was a tough decision that I thought long and hard about, and 5 minutes before going in to the meeting with my manager, I wasn't sure if I was making the right decision. Less than five minutes after I'd done it, though, I was certain that it was.
They made no attempt to change my mind, didn't try to keep me, aren't interested (apparently) in understanding the reasons behind my decision.
I was a little bit disappointed that, after 5 years of bloody hard work, they didn't even think that it was worth asking me if there was anything they could do to keep me.
I guess if someone's leaving with nothing else to go to, though, it's pretty obvious that there's no going back...
On Tuesday I had an interview for a job at a company local to where I live. At the moment, Mr B has to drop me off / pick me up because I don't drive, and I'm working a 10 hour day every day. In contrast, it took me 30 minutes to walk home after my interview - in snow / ice / dark, too, so I think on a "good" day (and when I've done it a bit more often and my fitness levels are better!) I could do it in 20. Awesome.
The job's a 6 month maternity cover contract, so nothing too long term, but it's with a massive organisation, so I think it would be a great foot in the door anyway. Please, keep everything crossed for me!
We also made a pretty big (but very sensible) decision about TTC this week, too. We've decided that, because I will be officially unemployed in 3 weeks time and I don't know when (or where) my next pay packets coming from, it wouldn't be great timing if I were to fall pregnant. So, we've decided that we're going to take a break from TTC. That's not to say that we're going to use contraceptives, but we're not going to jump to it when we think I'm OV-ing, like we have been doing lately.
I still haven't managed to get a new thermometer, so I haven't temped for more than a week.
I know I'm CD 54, though, and I think I OV'd a couple of days ago, which would make this cycle very similar to / the same as the last one, which isn't necessarily a bad thing.
Right, I've got a handover bible to write for work, so I best get cracking... !
On Monday, I handed in my notice at the job I've been in for more than five years, without a new one to go to. It was a tough decision that I thought long and hard about, and 5 minutes before going in to the meeting with my manager, I wasn't sure if I was making the right decision. Less than five minutes after I'd done it, though, I was certain that it was.
They made no attempt to change my mind, didn't try to keep me, aren't interested (apparently) in understanding the reasons behind my decision.
I was a little bit disappointed that, after 5 years of bloody hard work, they didn't even think that it was worth asking me if there was anything they could do to keep me.
I guess if someone's leaving with nothing else to go to, though, it's pretty obvious that there's no going back...
On Tuesday I had an interview for a job at a company local to where I live. At the moment, Mr B has to drop me off / pick me up because I don't drive, and I'm working a 10 hour day every day. In contrast, it took me 30 minutes to walk home after my interview - in snow / ice / dark, too, so I think on a "good" day (and when I've done it a bit more often and my fitness levels are better!) I could do it in 20. Awesome.
The job's a 6 month maternity cover contract, so nothing too long term, but it's with a massive organisation, so I think it would be a great foot in the door anyway. Please, keep everything crossed for me!
We also made a pretty big (but very sensible) decision about TTC this week, too. We've decided that, because I will be officially unemployed in 3 weeks time and I don't know when (or where) my next pay packets coming from, it wouldn't be great timing if I were to fall pregnant. So, we've decided that we're going to take a break from TTC. That's not to say that we're going to use contraceptives, but we're not going to jump to it when we think I'm OV-ing, like we have been doing lately.
I still haven't managed to get a new thermometer, so I haven't temped for more than a week.
I know I'm CD 54, though, and I think I OV'd a couple of days ago, which would make this cycle very similar to / the same as the last one, which isn't necessarily a bad thing.
Right, I've got a handover bible to write for work, so I best get cracking... !
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