Finally!

I finally had a good night's sleep last night. I fell asleep quickly, and slept the whole night through (with the bedside light still on, which is weird. Neither Mr B or I noticed that..!) and I woke up (almost) cheery this morning. Which is a miracle in itself because I am so NOT A MORNING PERSON!!!!

There is only one reason for my lovely night's sleep - my hubby.
I've been having a pretty crappy time at work just lately, and I'm really not enjoying it. There have been a few days in the past month where I've wanted to tell them exactly where to shove their job, pick up my bag and walk home (it's 13 miles, so that's saying something).
Anyway, last night I kinda blew up at Mr B - that's how it works, right? You have a bad day / week / month at work, and instead of taking it out on your colleagues or people that are making your life a misery, you take it out on your loved ones.

We ended up having a long chat about the situation and how it's affecting me, my moods, and ultimately, our relationship. Mr B told me that if it's that bad, I should give them my notice. Even though I don't have anything to go to. And we have a mortgage. And bills. And all the other things that come with the joys of being a grown up.

I don't really want to leave a job when I don't have anything else to go to, but given the choice between that (which would give me the ability to attend interviews / search for jobs) and having a bit of a mental meltdown, I don't think there's really any competition.

Mr B telling me that he'd help me and support my decision, whatever it may be, has given me the confidence to arrange a meeting with my boss (who's also the MD) and tell him exactly how I'm feeling. Shame I have to wait till he gets back from his holiday on Monday.

And knowing that, I slept really well.

Thank you Mr B!
xx

And then I...

Well, when I got home last night, I felt totally shattered. All I really wanted to do was put my PJs on. But I didn't.

I cooked dinner (well, cooked is probably a bit of an exageration. I re-heated some Jambalaya that I'd got out of the freezer. I had cooked it in the first place though. Home made ready meals rock!)

And then I...

Spent some time sorting my finances with Mr B. This is a task I HATE, but because I refuse to go the whole hog and have just the joint account, I have to do. I'm fiercely independent, and like to have my own money, but I'm not too great at it. But, I can't get away with not doing it, cos Mr B's an accountant, and he likes to know that I know where I'm at.

And then I...

Chatted briefly to my friend H, who is off on her hols today. I'm very excited for her - she's bravely headed off to Egypt, on her own. You go girl!

And then I ...

Did the ironing. Another task that I don't really enjoy. I was supposed to do it on Sunday, but put it off. I contemplated putting it off again last night, but then realised that if I didn't do it, I'd have nothing to wear. In the end, it only took 40 minutes, so that was a result.

And then I...

Did an OPK. This is all quite new to me, to be honest - TTC isn't something we've seriously done before, but the closer the holiday gets, the more serious I'm getting about it. I was hoping that, as I'd had the most regular cycles of my life since December, that was set to continue, but it doesn't look like it. We'll see....

And then I...

Did some exercise. I did 50 sit ups. I'm not going to be winning any medals for fitness fanatic of the year, but it was a start. And I'm gonna get the Wii Fit out tonight, too.

And then I...

Sat down and watched Hells Kitchen USA with Mr B. I don't really enjoy it, but it's mindless TV, and time with the hubby!

And then I...

Went to bed and read a bit.

And then I...

Went to sleep.

So, all in all, a pretty productive evening for someone who was knackered!!

xx

It's my birthday, and I'll cry if I want to...

... but I don't want to!!

I was really traumatised about turning 26, but in fact, I've decided that instead of moping, I'm going to use it as a bit of a "new year" for me, and make a list of things that I would like to achieve / do before I turn 27. So, here goes (in no particular order):

1. Learn to drive.
I've had lessons (and tests!) before, but haven't actually got as far as passing the test and getting my independance. I'm gonna do it!

2. Lose weight.
I know what I need to do, I know why I need to do it, and I know how to do it - I need to stop making excuses, and just bloody do it!

3. Be more social.
This was also our New Year's Resolution, and so far, so good. In fact, we haven't got a free weekend now until Easter, so I want to continue with that.

4. Save money!
Thanks to the wedding, and honeymoon, and all the expense that goes with it, I haven't really been able to save much money of late - I'd like to be able to start again. Money's something that I really stress over, and I like having some stashed away "for a rainy day".

5. Spend more time with my family.
I worry quite a lot about my dad and his health - there's nothing actually wrong with him, he just strongly resembles a walking heart attack! - and know I should spend more time with him, just in case. However, whenever I spend time with him, I'm reminded of why I don't spend time with him, so it's a bit of a vicious circle, really! I should get over it, and just spend more time with him!

So, it's not many, but there are enough to keep me going (but not too many for me to feel like it's unachieveable! I'll keep you posted with how I get on.